Babies come from watermelons

see?

Cover my eyes - La Roux

You were right

Coke does taste better.




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Free

And on my 10th day being cigarette-free, Ive let go.

Of smoking.


Of my bitterness.



Of my hate.

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For my brother

This one's for you. One of our favorites back then in New York.

To everyone else, the song is a bit dark so yeah sorry for that lol.

But the song does mean a lot to me and meh bro. ^____^

Staind-Outside

Oh here's the original song:

Lyrics:

And you,
Can bring me to my knees
Again
All the times
That I could beg you please
In vain
All the times
That I felt insecure
For you
And I leave
My burdens at the door

But I'm on the outside
And I'm looking in
I can see through you
See your true colors
'Cause inside you're ugly
You're ugly like me
I can see through you
See to the real you

All the times
That I felt like this won't end
It's for you
And I taste
What I could never have
It was from you
All the times
That I cried
My intentions
Were full of pride
All I waste
More time than anyone

But I'm on the outside
And I'm looking in
I can see through you
See your true colors
'Cause inside you're ugly
You're ugly like me
I can see through you
See to the real you

All the times
That I've cried
All this wasted
It's all inside
And I feel
All this pain
Stuffed it down
It's back again
And I lie
Here in bed
All alone
I can't mend
But I feel
Tomorrow will be okay

But I'm on the outside
And I'm looking in
I can see through you
See your true colors
'Cause inside you're ugly
You're ugly like me
I can see through you
See to the real you

I dont do stages, but I can definitely do black and white ^^

Forever is a dream. Then again we never stop dreaming.

In an ideal world, we can promise forever to someone.

Heck in this world, you cant even hope for fidelity. Let alone promises of forever.

From what Ive seen, conjugal faithfulness is a joke to most people.

But like Uze said, 30 or 40 years in the future (lets hope we dont have to wait THAT long)

here's to hoping we all find some sort of forever out there.

Because I havent given up yet. Not quite.

I bet everyone can relate

For everyone who knows the feeling.
My cover on Numb Linkin Park.

Fatness hooray!

Ive gained 3.9 kg!
Total gain of 4.9kg so far, and it feels great!

Today was a good day

Today I didnt smoke a single cigg.

Mustve been the good mood.

Surrounded by so many lovely people on Aidiladha.

We realise sometimes we dont need certain things, when we find whats better for us.

Scott Pilgrim Vs the World

You will never find a movie so epic and outrageous as this one.

But at the same time capturing so accurately the ugly shit in relationships today.

You just have to see it for yourself. Really.

Havent met you yet

Dedicated to me by my mom. ^^

Makes me wanna dance in a supermarket.

If only we can read minds.

Witty words and clever lines do look and sound great.

The mystery in meaning all too sexy.

Then again, people can misinterpret. Therein, lies the dilemma.

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Eclipse

Just saw eclipse.

Bella's a greedy bitch. If u want Edward by all means have him. Marry him. But how could you ask Jacob to kiss you knowing u'll just hurt him since u have no intention of being with him? Heartless monster.

And the saddest thing? Jacob will still love her.

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Dammit.

Its when all the smoking starts to feel toxic, more choking than relieving.

Its when no amount of stuffing my face with food makes me feel any better.

When the adrenaline from speed riding to the airport in the middle of the night is gone.

When the endorphins from my workout at the gym wears off.

And when no amount of muscle pain can distract me.

Thats when I become weak and realize Im still broken.

My illusion

Those little words inside, carved upon the silky desires of men

A passion without reason or will, ensuing in all that is within

I trust those words to be of my use

As this sword of cravings and atrocity weeps calmly in its sheath

But to whom do I revoke these thoughts to?

Below the deuce of wrecked livings and stories spun

Or the teeth of the beast that is me

Is this art? Or just a disease without a sound

Condemned for a moment

Frozen but forever

A breathable heart docked on its throne

With a thorn in its side, pulling these bellows away

A silent chime from the death bell miles away

Where the ill-fated cries faithfully along

And where were you, all this while?

Asleep.

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I wrote you a letter

I wrote you a letter

with ink from the heart.

I wrote you a letter

with the thread of my wishes.

I spun it with devotion

this letter I wrote.

I crafted it with my dreams

this letter I wrote.

I tied it to birds to take to the sky

they flew, mighty things oh they flew!

To you I sent them, these birds of gold

to send you my plea, my desperate hope.

I wrote you a letter

with ink from the heart.

And in the night

the silence stole it.

Your silence.

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For those after abs

It takes 250,000 crunches to burn 0.5kg of fat - about 100 crunches a day for 7 years.

If ure going for abs, cardio people cardio!

Me? Im busy eating! screw abs, not my priority. I want that fat. ^____^

Hoyeh!

Second Epiphany

The thing about love is, if it doesnt affect you positively then u're doing it all wrong.

When love ends it is only painful or destructive if you let it be.

For me it nurtured growth and provided strength.

It may have ended, but you were the best that ever happened to me.

I am a new person, happier and stronger in spirit than I have ever been.

...

You readers might be sick of it already, but shut up and bear with me, Im not done being sad yet.

For you

I'll sing it one last time for you
Then we really have to go
You've been the only thing that's right
In all I've done

To think I might not see those eyes
Makes it so hard not to cry
And as we say our long goodbye
I nearly do

Light up, light up
As if you have a choice
Even if you cannot hear my voice
I'll be right beside you dear

You were the only person who I felt genuinely liked me for me. I can never forget that.

Ive always wanted to play this song for you, to tell you I felt that way about you too.

Now I cant, but the least I could do is dedicate this cover to you. Sincerely from my heart.

It was wonderful, and my memories are only of the fondest.

I will miss you.

And we'll be ok. ^^

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This

hurts.

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Strange relationship

Do you love me?
Or am I just another trip in this strange relationship?
You push and pull me
and I'm about to lose my mind

Something so right but it feels so terribly wrong
I keep holding on

Maybe I'm sick of holding on

Something so right but it feels so terribly wrong

I keep holding on

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Siti Syazwan said this

Mencintai seseorang tidak semestinya memilikinya

It goes deeper than you'd think.

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Vegans check it out

No love

I used to be bullied real bad when I was rly young. I never talked about it, and it was awful.

Kids dont understand why they dont fit in, and some just accept it aswell as whatever treatment

they get from others.

There are 2 kinds of people, those who think they're better than others and those who think they're lower than others. Trust me, u may think ur the 3rd type who believes everyone is equal. But theres no such thing aslong as you're convinced that you're so different from others.

Its called feeling superior. And almost everyone has atleast a bit of it.

So yeah.

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puff puff puff

The thing about smoking is, you'll never understand smoking if you dont smoke.

And you'll never smoke unless you need to. And when u need to smoke, u'll smoke.

Its a bit of a weakness. Smoking helps you cope.

Hate smoking, thats fine. Just dont hate the smoker. ^^

Hopefully we'll all find the strength to quit this weakness.

Cheers!

The brightside

There are certain things you get good at from being turned down all the time.

You can tell when a girl is going to say no before she says it.

And you move on fairly quickly. Why hurt yourself, and why bother her?

Oh and here's a random observation: How come you always hear girls saying "he takes me for granted" but u never hear guys say they're taken for granted?

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Mona Lisa got nothing on this

A gift from a special someone ^^

yes no maybe I DONT KNOW

I hate guessing.

Its such a pain. Thats why I always go for it. Taking the plunge is better

than the sticky pain of moving nowhere.

My past leaps made me fall. Maybe Im tired of falling. So goddarnit Im back to guessing again.

Guessing hurts.

I hate guessing.

Do I take the leap?

O___O

What are you thinking about?

...

...

...You ^^

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Horny Autorickshaw driver

Think Auto drivers only hit on you girls? Think again.

Our driver who apparently was turned on by my friend accompanying me wasnt

too shy in asking us about sex and blowjobs.

When my friend left he shouted a merry " I LOVE YOU! "

The only scary thing is, he knows where we live now.

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I cant help but smile

I may hate paediatrics, but I love kids. When they smile,

its the most beautiful thing!

Me and Ariff met this lil guy in the hospital when I had the motorcycle accident

months back. Cutest thing ever. He just kept blinking and smiling.

Hamid's daughter Aisyahtaj was laughing and smiling on my motorcycle

when we came to his small eatery today.

We couldnt get her to smile properly on camera but she was so adorable.

Treasure Hunt

So I scour the WHOLE friggin Mantri Mall - So called the LARGEST mall in India to look for

just

one

teeny

weeny

hair

product.

In the WHOLE mall, for all of its glamour and reputed hair salons,

I CANT FIND ONE DECENT HAIR WAX/CLAY PRODUCT.

All I can find is beeswax oily crap whose oil content is bound

to grow you an army of pimples and another

wax the hardness of which is likened to erectile dysfunction.

And then I find it!

An acceptable hair wax

the price of which is more than tripled the cost

of a better brand widely available in Malaysia.

But who cares? A dude's gotta get his hair wax groove on.

Did I mention I suffered a friggin

monsoon storm on the way back by bike??

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I hate to whine but...

With this months cash being late and all

Quite literally these coins I dug up are all the money I have left.

Imagine paying a hundred rupees in coins for a meal.

hahaha

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After a breakup

So a couple breaks up right...

~~~ ~~~ ~~~ ~~

Boy: Me and her broke up.

Friends: Hey cheer up, she's a bitch. You're worth so much more than her. She doesnt deserve you.

Boy: Yeah maybe u're right.

~~~ ~~~ ~~~ ~~~

Girl: We broke up.

Friends: Hey cheer up, he's such a jerk. You're worth more than that, you know. He doesnt deserve you.

Girl: Yeah maybe u're right

~~~ ~~~ ~~~ ~~

So who's worth more than who?

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The Experiment

Give me any action/thriller/horror movie. NO amount of guns, bullets, ghosts or blood has

ever made me twitch at all. I yawn and even laugh when others scream in the theatre.

But this movie made my heart race. I was on the edge of my seat.

Towards the climax I was literally ready to punch someone in the face.

This is definitely a powerful movie you do not want to miss.

Take away civil rights from one group of people and chaos ensues. Even in children.

One teacher did the same exact experiment with her elementary students.

Blue-eyed children were denied certain rights while brown-eyed children had them.

The simplest things like only brown-eyed children were allowed to drink from the fountain.

What she witnessed was astounding. Instantly the browneyed kids developed supremacy.

Even those who were previously quiet and shy became bullies. And previously confident, well to do blue-eyed children became meek, cowering in class and scared. When you understand how

big of an impact all this has, you know what the world needs. To prevent violence.

And yet there's much oppression in the world.

From the movie : " You still think we're higher in the evolutionary chain than monkeys?"

Remember Me

If you havent seen the movie, see it.

Its very very moving.. I'm starting to realize how easy I tear up.

I was there in NYC when September 11 happened.

I was in school at the time, and I was there to witness what happened in New York.

What I remember so sharply from that day was the silence. There was panic, but

ironically it was so silent. I remember one father at school, I overheard him saying

his wife was in the building, and that he could not contact her. I was only 11 at the time,

but I knew the look on his face. Though he did not want to believe it yet, he knew

his wife was dead. I suppose the silence came from the losses people suffered.

You may be unaffected by their deaths. But you could feel what those who did felt,

in a way. Their sadness gripped the city and made it silent.

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A cruel double double standard.

The saddest thing

THE SADDEST THING, AND IM SURE. IS THAT WE ALL WATCH THIS, SAYING OH HOW TERRIBLE, BUT THEN WE GO BACK TO DOING NOTHING ABOUT IT. WE GO BACK TO NOT CARING. WE ONLY HAVE ENOUGH HUMAN COMPASSION IN US TO CARE FOR 3 MINUTES AND THEN WE DNT GIVE A DAMN.

We're such selfish human beings.

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About women.. true?

Ok so I read an article written by a guy about women. He's not a misogynist but yeah he's a sexist. Ok now before you girls get insulted, remember its just one guy's opinion. And yes of course there are 150,675 bad points about guys too. Its just that reading these and through my experience it seems like all these are spot on. Of course I don't condone the bad light in which he describes women but yeah. I felt like sharing this because... heck I have no idea. Maybe I want feedback, what do you think? And please dont start hating or flaming, I don't want a stupid argument.

These are a few things he said:

* Don't let her manipulate you or control you in any way. She will immediately lose all respect for you.

* DON'T TRY TO IMPRESS HER IN ANY WAY. Don't show off. Don't talk about accomplishments or possessions. As soon as she perceives that you are trying to prove yourself to her, she loses all interest.

* Make sure she gets the feeling that you have standards and that you are judging her based on them. Ask her questions that show her you are checking her out to see if she is up to snuff. Women don't like to feel like you are with them only because you can't do any better. They prefer to feel like you have high standards; you can get any chick you want, but you chose HER because she is SOOOO special and SOOOO different from all the others. Yeah, I know.

* She will start asking you lots of questions. This is what chicks do when they suddenly find themselves attracted to a man they know nothing about. This is usually the time when I throw in a few fake vulnerabilities, like pretending I'm shy or insecure about something. I know it's fucked up but women need to see that there are at least a few small holes where they can sink their hooks in you. They get uneasy if you are too perfect.

* Keep the woman always swinging somewhere between validation and rejection. If she feels rejected, she drops out or gets REALLY MAD. And if she feels too validated, she will ditch you in a heartbeat. So push her away (emotionally) and then pull her back in.

* Ironically, women are most attracted to the men who are most likely to get with them and then dump them on their ass - because those are precisely the men who have so many other options because they practice on lots of women. That's why you always hear women bitching about how men are assholes that only want to get them and dump them - because those are the men that they gravitate to.

*The sweetest most innocent girls you ever laid eyes on, will cheat at the drop of a HAT. The one thing that most men value most - loyalty - is just not there with women. Women don't think in terms of honor, women don't say "word is bond;" women are basically emotionally driven. If they feel it, they do it, period. Then they rationalize it to themselves later. Nothing is more meaningful, or compelling, to a woman than (1) the way she feels and (2) learning more about her own inner self and having emotional realizations.

* Women tend to wise up when they get towards their 30s, and they start looking for a nice wimpy beta male to settle down with and pay for all their shit. As they get older, they will get more and more desperate to find this guy. Once they do, they will cheat on him with an exciting fun guy like me.

* One more thing...many guys make the mistake of listening to female romantic advice. Don't listen to them, THEY DON'T KNOW WTF THEY ARE TALKING ABOUT, and they WILL steer you wrong. They will tell you what they THINK they want, instead of what they actually RESPOND to.

Ok so the rest of it I cant give you, because his details are rated 21++ and everyone will go crazy because thats what people do. I'd credit him but its signed "unknown".

On my part Ive made basically ALL the mistakes mentioned. And yeah I failed miserably when I made them. And all those nasty bits about women are testified by the experiences of not less than 20 of my friends.

And hey again, pls dnt hate. I found this article shocking, and Im not supporting it. Im wishing its not true. Anyways, there it is.

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In memory of Frank Syazwan Alfarid

You were a brother to me. Other than my family I dnt think anyone loved me as much as you did. Thats what it was, love. Not just some friendship you could toss away.

You told me I could do anything. You believed in me even when I didnt. You supported me only like family could. You taught me to be strong. It was love.

We never fought even once. Normal friends fight like crazy all the time. I cant remember even once when either of us hurt the other. We never once argued on anything.
It was love.

You used to walk all the way to my house from yours, just because you knew I was bored at home. You knew when I was sad, and you would be there. We used to walk outside in the dead of night. We used to sneak out and climb gates together. We used to break into theatres together. We used to have fun. You would always have my back. In trouble, you stuck around just to company me, you never ran to save yourself. It was love.

When my parents didnt like you, you didnt stop being there for me. You still came to see me. You still went to great trouble to visit. You would walk a thousand miles just to let me know you were still there. It was love.

I've always always always imagined how we would grow old together, visit each others' families and see each others' children. You were always there. I thought you would always be there. Today you passed away. Ive lost you.

I will push forward for you. I will push for success. I will remember all those kind words you spoke to me. Thank you, for everything.

May Allah bless you. Alfatihah..

The best movie ever

You just cant beat Titanic.

Sorry this particular video sucks at the very end the guy mustve thought it was funny to do that

but I cant find a good video.

Anyway, the first movie that made me cry. Unforgettable

So tragic...

*sob

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Triumphant!

I know it sounds funny but Im very pleased because Ive gained

My

First

KILOGRAM

of weight.

hopefully the first out of many many more.

To FATNESS!! (yes I just said fatness)

Hip2 Hooray!

Like this happy guy. He beat anorexia. Kudos mate!

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Dead fish.

http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=2097187&id=1204415798&ref=mf

so yea, check it out.

This cute jumping monkey is my sister ^^

Simple video really. A fragment of my family's life way waaay on the other side of the world.

But I must have watched it 30 times over by now.

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Heroes

Gandhi and all those monks and great philosophers etc they used to isolate themselves in some cave or mountain somewhere to meditate. To find meaning to life, to be at peace with the world.

Yeah well I do the same thing, cept its at Basyir's small eatery, sipping my chai.

Why isolate from humanity if thats what makes us human? To be surrounded by fellow mankind, now thats life. In prisons one of the worst punishments was to be kept in solitary confinement. It can drive a person insane to simply keep him away from outside contact.

Anyway, that sense of well-being that hermits seek in their refuge hits me every morning at that small eatery, getting my chai on. And these are the things I see:

Ramesh who works at basyir, who genuinely lights up when I come. He tells me since everyone is gone on holiday, his mornings move too slowly. I come for breakfast everyday since then, to give him company, and to have his.

There are labourers working on the drain across the road. Shovels, dirt piles, cement, bricks.

Men in tattered ripped shirts, dirt on their faces, barefooted. Women in soiled sarees, carrying a child in one arm and working with the other.

One small girl, barely able to walk yet. Barefooted, she dances! Oh god, Ive seen nothing more adorable than this in all my life! Laughing and smiling she unsteadily wobbles in her celebratory footwork. Yes, thats what it is. A celebration. Oft times children know to cherish life more than we.

Her father, sweat covered brow and hard at work pauses. He joins his daughter's merriment, delighting her immensely. To have missed this would have been a real loss.

Now these people,

these are real heroes.

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I make da awesome Roti Canai woh.

Dun eva watch youtube when ya frying da Roti Canai wokeyh...

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Family

If you watch Youtube alot, you'd know who the Shaytards are. Anyways, had me smiling through the whole video. Reminds me of my own crazy family. Theres so much love!

At the end I liked the caption he mentioned:

"We're raising kids not grass"

That'll stick with me

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Step Up 3D

This is for those who have seen the movie.

Is it just me or is the plot morally wrong?

Ill put it as simply as I can:

Natalie ( the hot heroine ) joins the pirate house with ulterior motives.

She acts as a mole, gaining access to their dance routine.

She is a spy for her brother.

After gaining their trust, she gives away a Dvd with all their dance moves to her brother

from the rival house thus potentially jeopardizing the final dance competition.

Losing the competition means they cannot fund their house.

Following that, eviction of all the house members. No home, no shelter, a broken family.

Ok now lets take a look at Carlos. One of the members of the pirate house.

After they are evicted from the house, Carlos does not have a home.

So he joins the rival samurai house, where he is offered a home and continues to dance.

Not only that, he comes with an offer to Luke from the samurai house saying they will give

back the pirate house if they lose the competition.

Carlos has not lied at all. He has not backstabbed anyone. He never had any evil motives.

He genuinely suggests they take the offer, to get back their house. He is concerned for his friends.

Now Natalie joined the pirate crew and gained their trust with the intention to

backstab every single member in it. To jeopardize their chance at winning the competition

and ultimately getting them thrown into the streets with no home. So it would seem that

Natalie is Satan incarnate. And that Carlos is not such a bad guy right?

Thats not what happens. Carlos is seen as the bad guy. And after a few apologies and tears,

Natalie is welcomed back with all smiles.

Everything EVIL that she has done is all forgiven just because she says to Luke with those pretty eyes "What I felt for you, that was real" ( or something similar I cant remember, was too busy vomiting) Oh and u cant say she redeemed herself by joining in the dance. She barely did anything. With all that brilliant LED light choreography theres no way they couldve lost. No thanks to her.

Now look at it this way.

Imagine Luke wasnt a perfectly handsome, tall and charming attractive guy.

Imagine Luke was a normal dude, who Natalie would not fall for.

She would have joined their crew, given crucial information to the rival house,

and left without a word. The crew wouldve lost, losing their chance to win money to fund the house, get evicted, the family broken and homeless and Luke would still be serving coffee as a waiter in some shitty eatery.

Because she didnt fall in love with Luke, if he were not such a perfectly hot guy.

DO YOU GUYS SEE WHAT IM TRYING TO SAY HERE??

Am I the only one who sees how disgusting the heroine is? Or are all the guys just happy cuz she's got a pretty face and all the girls are happy cuz she gets to kiss Mr. Perfect in the end??

PFFFFTTTT to society and its morals.

(oh hey anyone realize the pyramid on the table of the guy who works at the bank? Illuminati for you)

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To Anonymous

Dear Anonymous:

You like to comment on my blog.

You never have anything to say.

You say mean things.

You are hurtful.

You have no heart.

You keep telling me to fuck off on my own blog which makes no sense, and you spell it "fuck of" which is wrong.

Say something nice, and maybe we can be friends.

There's no reason we shouldn't be polite to each other.

Keep insulting me and I will disable anonymous comments.

You will not exist anymore.

And I will be at peace.

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Just the way you are

The greatest friends will make you feel great just the way you are.

Dedicated to someone who makes me feel just as wonderful as this song makes me feel.

I'd cover the song but omg I cant hit the high chorus without having to scream it out.

Bruno Mars - Just The Way You Are (Cover) Megan Nicole

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Tempe oh tempe

I love the Tempe here. I'm serious, they really are a beautiful people.

(if you're a negative hater go fucking die racist shit. TEEHEE)

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My First Epiphany

Here's one of my first epiphanies about love.

Dedicated to a friend ( cheer up pal )

Forget sophisticated girls. They may seem classy, elegant, intellectual, unique, deep, poetic, exquisitely literate, interesting, good at conversation, etc.

BUT THEIR TASTE IN GUYS

CAN

BE

JUST

AS

SHALLOW

AS

**CK.

Do they care if a guy is equally sweet, charming, caring, good at conversation, deep, unique, etc?

I suppose not. Nope, some girls seem to like TALL, DARK, HANDSOME, AND NOTHING ELSE.

(three things I will never be *sob sob*)

Im sorry but, so many really nice guys have the same sad stories about heartless chicks.

And dont be mad about it either my friends. Some things are just apart of life. For every heartless chick, there's a truckload (yes I just said truckload) of girls who are actually worth your love guys.

We'll all find our rainbow one day.

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Times have changed.

Songs BEFORE and songs NOW.

Specifically about fidelity and such.

BEFORE:

I'll Never Break Your Heart - Backstreet Boys

Truly, Madly, Deeply - Savage Garden

Quit Playing Games with My Heart - Backstreet Boys

I don't wanna miss a thing - Aerosmith

Cry me a River - Justin Timberlake

NOW:

Break Your Heart - Taio Cruz

Heartbreaker - Will I Am

Unfaithful - Rihanna

Girlfriend - Avril Lavigne

Irreplaceable - Beyonce

Love the Way you Lie - Eminem ft Rihanna

The list is endless

Sure both times have songs about infidelity but before it was shameful. Couples just dont have that strong of a bond anymore. Everyone is replaceable. And people LIKE being hurt.

It used to be popular to sing about how faithful one is. Now breaking hearts seems cool as these kinds of songs top charts. Doesnt music always reflect what society is into? Explains relationships these days. Times do change.

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My plans for Raya Holidays all alone in India

And the gym too of course. Hardly enough weights at home.

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It doesnt get any simpler than this

The most inspirational quote you've ever heard and it all comes from me:

Know what you want.

Now go get it.

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Book of Days

We sang this song during my graduation from P.S. 116 at the end of fifth grade in New York.

Its quite beautiful. So many beloved friends are sad, with exams during raya and all. I dedicate this song for you ^^

Book of Days - Enya

One way to be my journey~

ONWARDS!!!!~ Yeeeeehaaaa!! (mode gile takmo study)

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On the verge of exams

and all I manage to do is

SLEEP

THROUGH

THE

WHOLE

BLOODY

DAY.

wakeupwakeupwakeupwakeupwakeup.

Mr Sandman go find someone else.

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Blog rearrangement notice

Ive reorganized my blog so that all workout records will now be placed under the Workout Progress tab/page.

I hope viewing my blog is now a more comfortable experience for the more conservative readers.

Much love,

cheers!

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One brother. And three beautiful sisters.

Sadly, my brother's holiday and mine don't coincide. To go visit my family in Los Angeles without him being there would feel overwhelmingly incomplete.

So Im here in Bangalore, and will remain throughout the Raya celebrations.

I never really felt sad about not seeing my family this raya, that is until I reread a note my sister once gave me, which I keep in my wallet.

During last Raya before I came back to India, she had written it and given it to me.

Between me and the three girls there's an age gap. So before they came along it was just bang mal, my brother and dik yen, me. Hanee the youngest one never caught on that she should call me abang, so she switches between dik and bang alot.

During that raya I introduced Hafeeza the eldest of the three to contact lenses. I got her blue ones, which Haneesa really liked. She kept stealing one blue contact, and ran around the house with one blue eye with her sister chasing her.

Here's a picture with Aleena too (far right). Lucky I have her picture here, she runs away from cameras now when people take pictures.

Reading the Raya wish Hanee wrote me, I remember at the airport she ran after me crying when I left the security guard after saying all our goodbyes. It was quite heartbreaking.

So yeah I miss my family, and this raya Ill not be there. But Ill see you all soon one day.

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Scarborough fair

Oddly enough I have a thing for girls who can't sing to save their life.

Forget all the angel-voiced ones... they're so overrated.

There's something appealing about a girl with a very average voice who likes to sing anyways.

Nevertheless, I admire all you great singers too.

Here's an english ballad, Scarborough Fair.

Scarborough Fair - Celtic woman

And here's the first commercialized version

Scarborough Fair - Simon and Garfunkel

Of fairy tales and gore

A long while ago a friend of mine introduced me to The Sandman by Neil Gaiman. Never had the opportunity to read it until now. It may be a comic, but theres good reason it was the critically acclaimed read of its time. The series just completely blew my mind.

In one of the issues, a character in the books tells the Pre-Perrault version of Little Red Riding Hood. I thought it was absolutely bollocks, until I did the research that proved it to be quite accurate. So here's an excerpt from the issue on the original Little Red Riding Hood. Do click the pictures below to view.

After you put 2 and 2 together you do realize that the sweetest things can always be traced up to some other deeper grotesque thing. Such things that originate from those times always seem so terrible ( I mean look how sorrowful Shakespeare's writing can get ). Life then must have been a rot the likes of which we couldn't imagine in our own lives of abundance.

Then again you can dissect the teaching moral behind the story. Of many there's the sexual awakening interpretation in which the anthropomorphic wolf symbolizes a man ie. seducer, lover or sexual partner. And the "red" riding "hood" may well be her virginity, the hood most likely a hymen.

Oh, it'd be quite the task to protect my children from all the ugly things they'll encounter

when I become a father one day. What with god knows who the newer lady gagas in their generation would be like. Micheal Jackson dead and all, so few are the icons worthy of being good role models to kids. Then again, the only reason I was never really much trouble as a kid was because I was such a bookworm nerd. Figures..

Revelations and signs cant stop me

Im playing whatever mediocre songs on guitar I know of on the night Im

supposed to be studying for the exam tomorrow.

So I receive a sign from above that my actions are frowned upon. *TWANG*

My

guitar

string

snaps.

Dang it..

So what do I do?

I keep on playing.

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Airplanes

Heres another song for you lovely people out there reading my blog.

Airplanes - B.o.B. ft Hayley Williams

Oh bear in mind the chorus is sang by an illuminati artist but since I cant find

any satanic symbolism in this particular song she did, I quite enjoy listening to it.

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Girl I Need

If theres one thing that we need less of, its love songs

that make it sound like relationships are such

painful, complicated things.

Unlike the afore mentioned, this one is quite a lovely tune..

Makes me feel cheerful. ^____^

Girl I Need- Mario

La dee dee la dee dee dee la dee day~

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Drugs are good for you

Ive no stand whatsoever to marijuana or weed or any other recreational drug

since ive yet to try any of it, but hey this video is awesome.

It does seem like its made illegal to support the sell of alcohol. Of course this issue

is much more complex, and have you the interest please do some research and let me know.

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Hold my hand

This might possibly be the most beautiful song Ive ever heard to date. Growing up, Ive spent my first years of school in United Nations International School in New York. These few years may well be my most cherished years growing up overseas because of the ideal racial harmony I was immersed in. Im not talking about the half-truth "racial harmony" thats over-publicized in Malaysia. Im talking about being in a classroom with kids from Australia, China, India, Uganda, Russia, Japan, Korea, England, America and all the other countries in the world.

Did we know what race was? Well yeah we knew we came from different countries, but we didnt know why the word existed. All we knew were that we were friends. My best friend was a kid named Brett from Zimbabwe.

You always see children of different races holding hands either in paintings, or in world-peace events. Its because children want harmony. They want to befriend everyone. Now tell me how come adults of different races aren't ever depicted holding hands. (or very rarely since it should be somewhere out there)

Hold my hand - Maher Zain

Some key lyrics in the song that struck a chord with me:

...Now we share the same bright sun,
The same round moon
Why don’t we share the same love

Tell me why not...

...Hold My Hand my friend
We can save the good spirit of me and you
For another chance
And let’s pray for a beautiful world
A beautiful world I share with you...

...No matter how far I might be
I’m always gonna be your neighbor
There’s only one small planet where to be
So I’m always gonna be your neighbor...

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