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Saturday, November 27, 2010

Free

And on my 10th day being cigarette-free, Ive let go.

Of smoking.


Of my bitterness.



Of my hate.

^_______^









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Thursday, November 25, 2010

For my brother

This one's for you. One of our favorites back then in New York.
To everyone else, the song is a bit dark so yeah sorry for that lol.
But the song does mean a lot to me and meh bro. ^____^
Staind-Outside







Oh here's the original song:



Lyrics:
And you,
Can bring me to my knees
Again
All the times
That I could beg you please
In vain
All the times
That I felt insecure
For you
And I leave
My burdens at the door

But I'm on the outside
And I'm looking in
I can see through you
See your true colors
'Cause inside you're ugly
You're ugly like me
I can see through you
See to the real you

All the times
That I felt like this won't end
It's for you
And I taste
What I could never have
It was from you
All the times
That I cried
My intentions
Were full of pride
All I waste
More time than anyone

But I'm on the outside
And I'm looking in
I can see through you
See your true colors
'Cause inside you're ugly
You're ugly like me
I can see through you
See to the real you

All the times
That I've cried
All this wasted
It's all inside
And I feel
All this pain
Stuffed it down
It's back again
And I lie
Here in bed
All alone
I can't mend
But I feel
Tomorrow will be okay

But I'm on the outside
And I'm looking in
I can see through you
See your true colors
'Cause inside you're ugly
You're ugly like me
I can see through you
See to the real you

Monday, November 22, 2010

Forever is a dream. Then again we never stop dreaming.

In an ideal world, we can promise forever to someone.
Heck in this world, you cant even hope for fidelity. Let alone promises of forever.
From what Ive seen, conjugal faithfulness is a joke to most people.
But like Uze said, 30 or 40 years in the future (lets hope we dont have to wait THAT long)
here's to hoping we all find some sort of forever out there.
Because I havent given up yet. Not quite.


Friday, November 19, 2010

I bet everyone can relate

For everyone who knows the feeling.
My cover on Numb Linkin Park.

Thursday, November 18, 2010

Fatness hooray!

Ive gained 3.9 kg!
Total gain of 4.9kg so far, and it feels great!

Today was a good day

Today I didnt smoke a single cigg.
Mustve been the good mood.
Surrounded by so many lovely people on Aidiladha.

We realise sometimes we dont need certain things, when we find whats better for us.

Scott Pilgrim Vs the World

You will never find a movie so epic and outrageous as this one.
But at the same time capturing so accurately the ugly shit in relationships today.
You just have to see it for yourself. Really.



Wednesday, November 17, 2010

Havent met you yet

Dedicated to me by my mom. ^^



Makes me wanna dance in a supermarket.


Monday, November 15, 2010

If only we can read minds.

Witty words and clever lines do look and sound great.
The mystery in meaning all too sexy.

Then again, people can misinterpret. Therein, lies the dilemma.









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Sunday, November 14, 2010

Eclipse

Just saw eclipse.

Bella's a greedy bitch. If u want Edward by all means have him. Marry him. But how could you ask Jacob to kiss you knowing u'll just hurt him since u have no intention of being with him? Heartless monster.

And the saddest thing? Jacob will still love her.




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Dammit.

Its when all the smoking starts to feel toxic, more choking than relieving.
Its when no amount of stuffing my face with food makes me feel any better.
When the adrenaline from speed riding to the airport in the middle of the night is gone.
When the endorphins from my workout at the gym wears off.
And when no amount of muscle pain can distract me.

Thats when I become weak and realize Im still broken.



My illusion

Those little words inside, carved upon the silky desires of men

A passion without reason or will, ensuing in all that is within

I trust those words to be of my use

As this sword of cravings and atrocity weeps calmly in its sheath

But to whom do I revoke these thoughts to?



Below the deuce of wrecked livings and stories spun

Or the teeth of the beast that is me

Is this art? Or just a disease without a sound

Condemned for a moment

Frozen but forever



A breathable heart docked on its throne

With a thorn in its side, pulling these bellows away

A silent chime from the death bell miles away

Where the ill-fated cries faithfully along

And where were you, all this while?




Asleep.


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Wednesday, November 10, 2010

I wrote you a letter

I wrote you a letter
with ink from the heart.
I wrote you a letter
with the thread of my wishes.

I spun it with devotion
this letter I wrote.
I crafted it with my dreams
this letter I wrote.

I tied it to birds to take to the sky
they flew, mighty things oh they flew!
To you I sent them, these birds of gold
to send you my plea, my desperate hope.

I wrote you a letter
with ink from the heart.

And in the night
the silence stole it.
Your silence.






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For those after abs

It takes 250,000 crunches to burn 0.5kg of fat - about 100 crunches a day for 7 years.

If ure going for abs, cardio people cardio!

Me? Im busy eating! screw abs, not my priority. I want that fat. ^____^
Hoyeh!

Saturday, November 6, 2010

Second Epiphany



The thing about love is, if it doesnt affect you positively then u're doing it all wrong.
When love ends it is only painful or destructive if you let it be.
For me it nurtured growth and provided strength.
It may have ended, but you were the best that ever happened to me.
I am a new person, happier and stronger in spirit than I have ever been.