Dammit.

Its when all the smoking starts to feel toxic, more choking than relieving.

Its when no amount of stuffing my face with food makes me feel any better.

When the adrenaline from speed riding to the airport in the middle of the night is gone.

When the endorphins from my workout at the gym wears off.

And when no amount of muscle pain can distract me.

Thats when I become weak and realize Im still broken.