Thursday, September 30, 2010

Remember Me

If you havent seen the movie, see it.
Its very very moving.. I'm starting to realize how easy I tear up.

I was there in NYC when September 11 happened.
I was in school at the time, and I was there to witness what happened in New York.
What I remember so sharply from that day was the silence. There was panic, but
ironically it was so silent. I remember one father at school, I overheard him saying
his wife was in the building, and that he could not contact her. I was only 11 at the time,
but I knew the look on his face. Though he did not want to believe it yet, he knew
his wife was dead. I suppose the silence came from the losses people suffered.
You may be unaffected by their deaths. But you could feel what those who did felt,
in a way. Their sadness gripped the city and made it silent.


A cruel double double standard.

Wednesday, September 29, 2010

The saddest thing


We're such selfish human beings.


Monday, September 27, 2010

About women.. true?

Ok so I read an article written by a guy about women. He's not a misogynist but yeah he's a sexist. Ok now before you girls get insulted, remember its just one guy's opinion. And yes of course there are 150,675 bad points about guys too. Its just that reading these and through my experience it seems like all these are spot on. Of course I don't condone the bad light in which he describes women but yeah. I felt like sharing this because... heck I have no idea. Maybe I want feedback, what do you think? And please dont start hating or flaming, I don't want a stupid argument.
These are a few things he said:

* Don't let her manipulate you or control you in any way. She will immediately lose all respect for you.

* DON'T TRY TO IMPRESS HER IN ANY WAY. Don't show off. Don't talk about accomplishments or possessions. As soon as she perceives that you are trying to prove yourself to her, she loses all interest.

* Make sure she gets the feeling that you have standards and that you are judging her based on them. Ask her questions that show her you are checking her out to see if she is up to snuff. Women don't like to feel like you are with them only because you can't do any better. They prefer to feel like you have high standards; you can get any chick you want, but you chose HER because she is SOOOO special and SOOOO different from all the others. Yeah, I know.

* She will start asking you lots of questions. This is what chicks do when they suddenly find themselves attracted to a man they know nothing about. This is usually the time when I throw in a few fake vulnerabilities, like pretending I'm shy or insecure about something. I know it's fucked up but women need to see that there are at least a few small holes where they can sink their hooks in you. They get uneasy if you are too perfect.

* Keep the woman always swinging somewhere between validation and rejection. If she feels rejected, she drops out or gets REALLY MAD. And if she feels too validated, she will ditch you in a heartbeat. So push her away (emotionally) and then pull her back in.

* Ironically, women are most attracted to the men who are most likely to get with them and then dump them on their ass - because those are precisely the men who have so many other options because they practice on lots of women. That's why you always hear women bitching about how men are assholes that only want to get them and dump them - because those are the men that they gravitate to.

*The sweetest most innocent girls you ever laid eyes on, will cheat at the drop of a HAT. The one thing that most men value most - loyalty - is just not there with women. Women don't think in terms of honor, women don't say "word is bond;" women are basically emotionally driven. If they feel it, they do it, period. Then they rationalize it to themselves later. Nothing is more meaningful, or compelling, to a woman than (1) the way she feels and (2) learning more about her own inner self and having emotional realizations.

* Women tend to wise up when they get towards their 30s, and they start looking for a nice wimpy beta male to settle down with and pay for all their shit. As they get older, they will get more and more desperate to find this guy. Once they do, they will cheat on him with an exciting fun guy like me.

* One more thing...many guys make the mistake of listening to female romantic advice. Don't listen to them, THEY DON'T KNOW WTF THEY ARE TALKING ABOUT, and they WILL steer you wrong. They will tell you what they THINK they want, instead of what they actually RESPOND to.

Ok so the rest of it I cant give you, because his details are rated 21++ and everyone will go crazy because thats what people do. I'd credit him but its signed "unknown".

On my part Ive made basically ALL the mistakes mentioned. And yeah I failed miserably when I made them. And all those nasty bits about women are testified by the experiences of not less than 20 of my friends.

And hey again, pls dnt hate. I found this article shocking, and Im not supporting it. Im wishing its not true. Anyways, there it is.


Sunday, September 26, 2010

In memory of Frank Syazwan Alfarid

You were a brother to me. Other than my family I dnt think anyone loved me as much as you did. Thats what it was, love. Not just some friendship you could toss away.

You told me I could do anything. You believed in me even when I didnt. You supported me only like family could. You taught me to be strong. It was love.

We never fought even once. Normal friends fight like crazy all the time. I cant remember even once when either of us hurt the other. We never once argued on anything.
It was love.

You used to walk all the way to my house from yours, just because you knew I was bored at home. You knew when I was sad, and you would be there. We used to walk outside in the dead of night. We used to sneak out and climb gates together. We used to break into theatres together. We used to have fun. You would always have my back. In trouble, you stuck around just to company me, you never ran to save yourself. It was love.

When my parents didnt like you, you didnt stop being there for me. You still came to see me. You still went to great trouble to visit. You would walk a thousand miles just to let me know you were still there. It was love.

I've always always always imagined how we would grow old together, visit each others' families and see each others' children. You were always there. I thought you would always be there. Today you passed away. Ive lost you.

I will push forward for you. I will push for success. I will remember all those kind words you spoke to me. Thank you, for everything.

May Allah bless you. Alfatihah..

Saturday, September 25, 2010

The best movie ever

You just cant beat Titanic.

Sorry this particular video sucks at the very end the guy mustve thought it was funny to do that
but I cant find a good video.

Anyway, the first movie that made me cry. Unforgettable
So tragic...



I know it sounds funny but Im very pleased because Ive gained




of weight.

hopefully the first out of many many more.
To FATNESS!! (yes I just said fatness)
Hip2 Hooray!

Like this happy guy. He beat anorexia. Kudos mate!


Dead fish.

so yea, check it out.

Friday, September 24, 2010

This cute jumping monkey is my sister ^^

Simple video really. A fragment of my family's life way waaay on the other side of the world.
But I must have watched it 30 times over by now.



Gandhi and all those monks and great philosophers etc they used to isolate themselves in some cave or mountain somewhere to meditate. To find meaning to life, to be at peace with the world.

Yeah well I do the same thing, cept its at Basyir's small eatery, sipping my chai.

Why isolate from humanity if thats what makes us human? To be surrounded by fellow mankind, now thats life. In prisons one of the worst punishments was to be kept in solitary confinement. It can drive a person insane to simply keep him away from outside contact.

Anyway, that sense of well-being that hermits seek in their refuge hits me every morning at that small eatery, getting my chai on. And these are the things I see:

Ramesh who works at basyir, who genuinely lights up when I come. He tells me since everyone is gone on holiday, his mornings move too slowly. I come for breakfast everyday since then, to give him company, and to have his.

There are labourers working on the drain across the road. Shovels, dirt piles, cement, bricks.
Men in tattered ripped shirts, dirt on their faces, barefooted. Women in soiled sarees, carrying a child in one arm and working with the other.

One small girl, barely able to walk yet. Barefooted, she dances! Oh god, Ive seen nothing more adorable than this in all my life! Laughing and smiling she unsteadily wobbles in her celebratory footwork. Yes, thats what it is. A celebration. Oft times children know to cherish life more than we.

Her father, sweat covered brow and hard at work pauses. He joins his daughter's merriment, delighting her immensely. To have missed this would have been a real loss.

Now these people,
these are real heroes.


Thursday, September 23, 2010

I make da awesome Roti Canai woh.

Dun eva watch youtube when ya frying da Roti Canai wokeyh...


Wednesday, September 22, 2010


If you watch Youtube alot, you'd know who the Shaytards are. Anyways, had me smiling through the whole video. Reminds me of my own crazy family. Theres so much love!

At the end I liked the caption he mentioned:
"We're raising kids not grass"
That'll stick with me


Monday, September 20, 2010

Step Up 3D

This is for those who have seen the movie.
Is it just me or is the plot morally wrong?

Ill put it as simply as I can:

Natalie ( the hot heroine ) joins the pirate house with ulterior motives.
She acts as a mole, gaining access to their dance routine.
She is a spy for her brother.
After gaining their trust, she gives away a Dvd with all their dance moves to her brother
from the rival house thus potentially jeopardizing the final dance competition.

Losing the competition means they cannot fund their house.
Following that, eviction of all the house members. No home, no shelter, a broken family.

Ok now lets take a look at Carlos. One of the members of the pirate house.
After they are evicted from the house, Carlos does not have a home.
So he joins the rival samurai house, where he is offered a home and continues to dance.
Not only that, he comes with an offer to Luke from the samurai house saying they will give
back the pirate house if they lose the competition.

Carlos has not lied at all. He has not backstabbed anyone. He never had any evil motives.
He genuinely suggests they take the offer, to get back their house. He is concerned for his friends.

Now Natalie joined the pirate crew and gained their trust with the intention to
backstab every single member in it. To jeopardize their chance at winning the competition
and ultimately getting them thrown into the streets with no home. So it would seem that
Natalie is Satan incarnate. And that Carlos is not such a bad guy right?

Thats not what happens. Carlos is seen as the bad guy. And after a few apologies and tears,
Natalie is welcomed back with all smiles.

Everything EVIL that she has done is all forgiven just because she says to Luke with those pretty eyes "What I felt for you, that was real" ( or something similar I cant remember, was too busy vomiting) Oh and u cant say she redeemed herself by joining in the dance. She barely did anything. With all that brilliant LED light choreography theres no way they couldve lost. No thanks to her.

Now look at it this way.
Imagine Luke wasnt a perfectly handsome, tall and charming attractive guy.
Imagine Luke was a normal dude, who Natalie would not fall for.
She would have joined their crew, given crucial information to the rival house,
and left without a word. The crew wouldve lost, losing their chance to win money to fund the house, get evicted, the family broken and homeless and Luke would still be serving coffee as a waiter in some shitty eatery.
Because she didnt fall in love with Luke, if he were not such a perfectly hot guy.


Am I the only one who sees how disgusting the heroine is? Or are all the guys just happy cuz she's got a pretty face and all the girls are happy cuz she gets to kiss Mr. Perfect in the end??
PFFFFTTTT to society and its morals.

(oh hey anyone realize the pyramid on the table of the guy who works at the bank? Illuminati for you)


Sunday, September 19, 2010

To Anonymous

Dear Anonymous:

You like to comment on my blog.
You never have anything to say.
You say mean things.
You are hurtful.
You have no heart.
You keep telling me to fuck off on my own blog which makes no sense, and you spell it "fuck of" which is wrong.
Say something nice, and maybe we can be friends.
There's no reason we shouldn't be polite to each other.
Keep insulting me and I will disable anonymous comments.
You will not exist anymore.
And I will be at peace.


Saturday, September 18, 2010

Just the way you are

The greatest friends will make you feel great just the way you are.

Dedicated to someone who makes me feel just as wonderful as this song makes me feel.

I'd cover the song but omg I cant hit the high chorus without having to scream it out.

Bruno Mars - Just The Way You Are (Cover) Megan Nicole


Friday, September 17, 2010

Tempe oh tempe

I love the Tempe here. I'm serious, they really are a beautiful people.

(if you're a negative hater go fucking die racist shit. TEEHEE)


My First Epiphany

Here's one of my first epiphanies about love.

Dedicated to a friend ( cheer up pal )

Forget sophisticated girls. They may seem classy, elegant, intellectual, unique, deep, poetic, exquisitely literate, interesting, good at conversation, etc.


Do they care if a guy is equally sweet, charming, caring, good at conversation, deep, unique, etc?
I suppose not. Nope, some girls seem to like TALL, DARK, HANDSOME, AND NOTHING ELSE.
(three things I will never be *sob sob*)
Im sorry but, so many really nice guys have the same sad stories about heartless chicks.

And dont be mad about it either my friends. Some things are just apart of life. For every heartless chick, there's a truckload (yes I just said truckload) of girls who are actually worth your love guys.
We'll all find our rainbow one day.


Thursday, September 16, 2010

Times have changed.

Songs BEFORE and songs NOW.
Specifically about fidelity and such.


I'll Never Break Your Heart - Backstreet Boys

Truly, Madly, Deeply - Savage Garden

Quit Playing Games with My Heart - Backstreet Boys

I don't wanna miss a thing - Aerosmith

Cry me a River - Justin Timberlake


Break Your Heart - Taio Cruz

Heartbreaker - Will I Am

Unfaithful - Rihanna

Girlfriend - Avril Lavigne

Irreplaceable - Beyonce

Love the Way you Lie - Eminem ft Rihanna

The list is endless

Sure both times have songs about infidelity but before it was shameful. Couples just dont have that strong of a bond anymore. Everyone is replaceable. And people LIKE being hurt.
It used to be popular to sing about how faithful one is. Now breaking hearts seems cool as these kinds of songs top charts. Doesnt music always reflect what society is into? Explains relationships these days. Times do change.


My plans for Raya Holidays all alone in India

And the gym too of course. Hardly enough weights at home.


Friday, September 10, 2010

It doesnt get any simpler than this

The most inspirational quote you've ever heard and it all comes from me:

Know what you want.

Now go get it.


Thursday, September 9, 2010

Book of Days

We sang this song during my graduation from P.S. 116 at the end of fifth grade in New York.
Its quite beautiful. So many beloved friends are sad, with exams during raya and all. I dedicate this song for you ^^

Book of Days - Enya

One way to be my journey~

ONWARDS!!!!~ Yeeeeehaaaa!! (mode gile takmo study)


Wednesday, September 8, 2010

On the verge of exams

and all I manage to do is








Mr Sandman go find someone else.


Blog rearrangement notice

Ive reorganized my blog so that all workout records will now be placed under the Workout Progress tab/page.

I hope viewing my blog is now a more comfortable experience for the more conservative readers.

Much love,


Monday, September 6, 2010

One brother. And three beautiful sisters.

Sadly, my brother's holiday and mine don't coincide. To go visit my family in Los Angeles without him being there would feel overwhelmingly incomplete.

So Im here in Bangalore, and will remain throughout the Raya celebrations.
I never really felt sad about not seeing my family this raya, that is until I reread a note my sister once gave me, which I keep in my wallet.

During last Raya before I came back to India, she had written it and given it to me.

Between me and the three girls there's an age gap. So before they came along it was just bang mal, my brother and dik yen, me. Hanee the youngest one never caught on that she should call me abang, so she switches between dik and bang alot.

During that raya I introduced Hafeeza the eldest of the three to contact lenses. I got her blue ones, which Haneesa really liked. She kept stealing one blue contact, and ran around the house with one blue eye with her sister chasing her.

Here's a picture with Aleena too (far right). Lucky I have her picture here, she runs away from cameras now when people take pictures.

Reading the Raya wish Hanee wrote me, I remember at the airport she ran after me crying when I left the security guard after saying all our goodbyes. It was quite heartbreaking.
So yeah I miss my family, and this raya Ill not be there. But Ill see you all soon one day.


Sunday, September 5, 2010

Scarborough fair

Oddly enough I have a thing for girls who can't sing to save their life.
Forget all the angel-voiced ones... they're so overrated.
There's something appealing about a girl with a very average voice who likes to sing anyways.

Nevertheless, I admire all you great singers too.
Here's an english ballad, Scarborough Fair.

Scarborough Fair - Celtic woman

And here's the first commercialized version

Scarborough Fair - Simon and Garfunkel

Of fairy tales and gore

A long while ago a friend of mine introduced me to The Sandman by Neil Gaiman. Never had the opportunity to read it until now. It may be a comic, but theres good reason it was the critically acclaimed read of its time. The series just completely blew my mind.

In one of the issues, a character in the books tells the Pre-Perrault version of Little Red Riding Hood. I thought it was absolutely bollocks, until I did the research that proved it to be quite accurate. So here's an excerpt from the issue on the original Little Red Riding Hood. Do click the pictures below to view.

After you put 2 and 2 together you do realize that the sweetest things can always be traced up to some other deeper grotesque thing. Such things that originate from those times always seem so terrible ( I mean look how sorrowful Shakespeare's writing can get ). Life then must have been a rot the likes of which we couldn't imagine in our own lives of abundance.

Then again you can dissect the teaching moral behind the story. Of many there's the sexual awakening interpretation in which the anthropomorphic wolf symbolizes a man ie. seducer, lover or sexual partner. And the "red" riding "hood" may well be her virginity, the hood most likely a hymen.

Oh, it'd be quite the task to protect my children from all the ugly things they'll encounter
when I become a father one day. What with god knows who the newer lady gagas in their generation would be like. Micheal Jackson dead and all, so few are the icons worthy of being good role models to kids. Then again, the only reason I was never really much trouble as a kid was because I was such a bookworm nerd. Figures..

Saturday, September 4, 2010

Revelations and signs cant stop me

Im playing whatever mediocre songs on guitar I know of on the night Im
supposed to be studying for the exam tomorrow.

So I receive a sign from above that my actions are frowned upon. *TWANG*





Dang it..

So what do I do?

I keep on playing.


Thursday, September 2, 2010


Heres another song for you lovely people out there reading my blog.

Airplanes - B.o.B. ft Hayley Williams

Oh bear in mind the chorus is sang by an illuminati artist but since I cant find
any satanic symbolism in this particular song she did, I quite enjoy listening to it.


Wednesday, September 1, 2010

Girl I Need

If theres one thing that we need less of, its love songs
that make it sound like relationships are such
painful, complicated things.

Unlike the afore mentioned, this one is quite a lovely tune..
Makes me feel cheerful. ^____^

Girl I Need- Mario

La dee dee la dee dee dee la dee day~